"Id Rather Kill Myself Than Sell Myself"

I was born on December 12, 1989. I went to Alexandria Central School for the first 5 years of my life. I miss that school a lot, and miss all my old friends. I was a bad kid, always getting into trouble, it seemed like a hopeless route. My brother and sister soon moved out when they were around 18 years old and they shipped their lives down into South Carolina. South Carolina is where they remain this day. As i was growing up i was the only kid at home for the longest time. I lived kinda far out, not to many people around me. I had my first gf in 5th grade and we dated on and off. Longest was a year and a half. As a kid, i was pretty much like any other kid. Just trying to have fun and at the same time, try to understand life and how to live it. As i got older, towards the end of 5th grade, my parents split their marriage and we were forced out of my fathers house late one night after an argument. We then later that night went to my aunts house we we lived for a couple months. This was located in Redwood, about 5 miles from where i lived. After a while, we bought an apartment up the road from my aunt's house. My mother met another guy named Tim, who till this day is a father to me. We lived in the apartment for about a half of a year and then i got the news i was moving to Adams Center. I did not like this news at all. The next few weeks of school were very, very depressing. You truly don't know how much you love your friends until you have to leave them behind. In the car i got, 45 minutes later i arrived in Adams Center. I was very sick. The rest of 5th grade in South Jeff was horrible. Sure i met new kids but they just weren't the same as my old friends. I remember one day i went in the bathroom and cried. I met my first friend in South Jeff and his name is John Krone, and till this day he's my best friend, rough times or good times, 7 years and still going. After that year at the Schultz, i moved up to 6th grade and slowly things picked up. 8th grade was a flash, it was so fun and also the first time i dated Heidi Rogers. Through the next few years we dated on and off but never less was a great and serious relationship. Things change and people change, 10th grade hit, and we left each other for good. The best year had to be 9th grade. So much fun, no worries-no girls-no drama-just fun and these days i will always miss and ill never forget, but no matter how bad i want them days back, i can't have them back. This was also the year i started writing lyrics because i saw my fellow friends doing it so i started it out as fun and as a joke, but soon to come out, I learned to grow with it. The summer of 06 was pretty nuts. I was in Ohio with my sister. One day i got a phone call, and was told my cousin Sarah was killed in a car accident. This impacted me a lot. I've never had a close family member pass away before. I never once went to a funeral till Sarah passed away. I never thought id be so hard to try not crying, but i was wrong. Sarah was only 18, and had the world to live for, but was taken early. It's true what they say, the good die young. I miss you and i am always thinking of you, I'll always love you. Just know ill always shed a tear for you. The next year of school was kind of hard for me, but i got through it. It was also the grade i recorded my first song. Hank Okenowski, a friend i miss and will be waiting when he comes back, i thank you for giving me the chance to grow. 11th grade and now I am older and smarter than ever. My mind is a dictionary, and my music is my life, but till this day, i am still missing something and i am still confused. Music is my life but...something just isn't in me anymore, it's like i have no ambition anymore. Summer of 07 was a different but none the less an interesting summer. Year has had it's ups and downs. I have a soft heart, and you can ask any of my friends, they've all seen me hurt. When I'm hurt, I can't be who i truly am and have a tough time living my life. I've had my heart broke numerous times in the past, but i guess it's something everyone has to go through, just not as many times as me. Well, that's pretty much my story, I am Shane and nobody else. I love my friends, but be careful who you trust, the closest could very well stab you in the back. I love my mother and my family, I always will. I love my friends from Alex Bay and from South Jeff. Through good and bad, never give up in love, no matter how hard or bad it is. Never give up what you believe in-no matter what, never give in.......No matter what happens. I have someone new i my life, her name is Brittani Norton and we started dating 3/15/08 and i finally realized that I'm in deeper love than i have ever been before, yea, and I'm not regretting it. She's amazing to my life and i hope she stays with me forever, My heart is in your hands, you decide babe, and their it will remain forever, in your hands. I love you and always will, I promise. For all you haters that like to hate, Fuck off and worry about your own damn lives. I hate drama and drama hates me so i want no part in your drama or drama at all. -Khaotic $MY MUSIC LIFE!--I started writing lyrics in the middle of the 2005 school year. I simply did it because some of my friends were doing it so i tried and liked it. Of course i sucked horrible and to this day i still think i suck ha ha. When i first recorded with a friend named Creig Barkley (Khaos) we started up our own group called M.O.E and he went by the name Technique and i went by the name Shane O Mac. Well all faded and the groups name was changed due to other groups that were named M.O.E, we wanted to be original so we changed our name to Team Khaos and he changed his name to Khaos and mine was changed to Khaotic. We sold one CD during the year of 2007 and 2008 and the CD was called "Realization" and the CD was a good sell. After Creig graduated i was left being a senior by myself and we parted ways kinda. He still writes music and i do as well. I work with a lot of local rappers and even world wide rappers. I am creating my own cd called "Reincarnation" and it should be released by 2010.
MY CURRENT LIFE!--I am now an indie artist and is willing to work with anyone. I am still with the same girlfriend and it's been a whole year now, wow, I can't believe how great my life is. I am working for the state at a beach called Southwick's beach. Yeah working at the beach is cool and all and it is good money as well. I am a maintenance worker, so yes i clean bathrooms. I am almost done with school and i must say i am somewhat dreeding it. Though i have always wanted to graduate and move to South Carolina with my brother and sister i must say im kinda bummed about leaving. I mean i am excited couse i love it down there but it's time for real life. I think i am going to do well with myself and life. I have had plenty of experiance of living and what it's like to be on your own. During the summers i used to stay with my bro and id work and earn my own money and pay for things, i guess it's time to see what i can do. Im not sure whats going to happen yet but either way will be a sucess. I want to go to a community college for two years and i am really hoping that will work, i think it will, but time will most certainly tell. Other than that, im still doing the same stuff with the same people just getting the last bit of fun i can before it's gone. Musc, girlfriend, family and friends. Only things you need in life, just be true to them and most important to yourself, don't fake yourself for something your not. Family is love, and music is me. I do music because i enjoy it, if you don't accept it then rejoice from it and leave me alone. This profile is run by Shane Aznoe (Khaotic). I am an indie artist, but if you'd like to collaborate sometime, get at me on aim.

Aim- SlangTrue4Life
Myspace- www.myspace.com/shaneomacstaytrue

Yours Truly,
Shane Michael James Aznoe
-Khaotic